I almost died and the change had just begun

Yesterday when I got off work, I felt so empowered by my commitment to change. I felt like I needed to make it tangible, so I took a step. By taking a step I mean I went walking. After picking my daughter up from daycare, we headed to the park. Equipped with my walking shoes, bottled water, stroller and snacks for PeyPey I set out. As we walked I enjoyed the breeze. Peyton sipped on gatorade and ate goldfish snacks. We were almost done with the walk, or so I thought when I got a really bad migraine headache. I felt dizzy and couldn't see. There was no apparent place to stop and rest. Also just about this time Peyton got really fussy. She wanted to get out of the stroller and hold on to me. I kept saying Lord just let me make it to the car. I felt like I was going to die because my head would surely explode.

We finally made it to the car and I couldn't even drive. I sat there helpless for what seemed like an hour. I passed two of my church members in the car on the way out. Little did they know I was thinking, Never Would Have Made It, whew!

When I got home I slept for three hours. Peyton was running around doing God knows what. When I woke up she was still full of energy. She didn't go to sleep until midnight.

That first step was hard and the result unexpected but I look back on it today and think, that was yesterday. Remember, I'm forgetting the former.

The start of a change

Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold all things are become new (2 Corinthians 5:17).

Today marks a new beginning for me. There is nothing special about today except for the fact that I like to make changes on Monday. It starts the week for me on a good note. Today I am committed to totally changing who I am, my life, my circumstances, my condition, my community and eventually the world. Someone may be wondering, what type/kind of change and how will it be done? I simply reply, watch/wait and see.

There is a great need for this change in my life. I have become calloused to life's circumstances, only paying attention to tragedies and not celebrating the victories. I have made a contract with myself to make a contious effort to change the world, starting with me. God is greater than all our affictions and so our lives should reflect that.

My feelings today are feelings of stress and anxiety because I don't know how long it will take, but I do know that I am committed. The bible says in Luke 9:62; no man, having put his hand to the plough, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom. So I must press, because I have started this journey, this road that leads to change and ultimately a new creation.

If you can't help me, please don't stop me, move out of my way, don't try to block me. I got a race to run and I'm running by faith. At the finishing line, I'll see God's face.